Getting personal

While I don't know who reads this blog, I've got 14 followers and since I have sort of substituted blogging for journaling, its time to get personal. Sorry if you don't like it. But not really. No, not so much.

My bod is doing some whack things this year! I've gained about 10 lbs since last summer and that is like, F$@#'ing no fun!!! NO FUN! I'm still squeezing into my size 4's but its kind of yuck - muffin top 'yo. I refuse to purchase larger clothing because I'm not having this extra cushion for long - I hope. I'm going to the gym 4 times a week or more, doing yoga 3 days a week, and going to start doing weights again. If any of you friends go to the Colorado Athletic Club downtown Denver let me know! Workout buddies wanted :)

I've stopped taking the pill back in April and then gave my body a few months to adjust. While in "adjust mode" we went on 3 week-long vacations so the timing of working out & being healthy & adjusting wasn't paired well. In any case, it seems as though things are back to "normal" but maybe just on the surface? Geof and I have been "trying" for bebes for three months now. No luck so far! When I say trying I mean we're having sex without protection - I'm not going crazy with charting, timing, temperatures, scheduling, etc. So I'm not super worried that we aren't prego yet but I was slightly disappointed and shocked when the first month was not a +. You spend your whole adult life trying to NOT get prego and so when you're ready you expect that to happen right away. I'll find out in a week or two if this month was the one :) There, now you know all about my female issues or lack there'of. Sweet.

The funny thing about all of this change with the physical ME is that the spiritual and emotional ME is doing fan-freakin-tastic! I'm so happy!! I'm so IN LOVE with my life! I'm doing yoga and staying grounded. I'm turning 28 in a few weeks! We're finally getting our home pieced back together after the break in. Everything is going well. I feel at peace. I almost feel like I'm not getting prego yet because God is giving me this ME time. Our lives are full of so many cycles, ebbs and flows. I feel the energy and creativity in my life swinging back around to me - coming inward - and maybe I should just soak this time up before I have to give it all back -send it out to our little family. I do tend to put myself behind others yet I'm aware of some selfish tendencies. Lately, I'm balanced and I'm thankful. Now if the physical me would just climb aboard this happy train and shed some lovin I would be a pillar of perfection! HAHAHA, that's rediculous, just a joke. ALL ABOARD!!!